half way out of the dark

2012-02-14T00:46:00.000-08:00

Damn, my bag is going to be hella heavy tomorrow LOL :( I now have a maths text book and I have all this drama crap and I have my UMAT stuff and omg LOL I wanna cry :(

WHY DIDN'T I GET A LOCKER?! :((((

Idk if I should go to the belonging tutorial tomorrow morning .... omg and I have 3u tutorial after school LOL

This better be worth it :(

lol

2012-02-11T14:32:00.000-08:00

happy birthday cunt :)

2012-02-10T14:09:00.000-08:00

You know what would've been a cool prac for the year 10 do-it-yourself practical assessment? Well, buying hydrangeas (flowers) and grow em in soils with different pHs. They'll turn blue in basic soils and pink in acidic soil LOL ORRRRR growing a basic hydrangea and using acidic fertilizer or watering it with acid LOL!!!! The last one is a bit extreme, but omg you could totally observe the colour change and make your own chart in accordance to acidic intensity LOL

Damn, if only I had this before :(

2012-02-09T22:27:00.000-08:00

I hate school, I want the holidays back :'(

The first week of school took forever to end, but this week just kind of rushed by. I'm no longer on top of my work and this makes me very sad. I also just finished last weeks ep of skins and it added to my sadness LOL :(

Did I ever tell you that I hate going on like small class excursions, like drama and music LOl even though most of the time the stuff we go to see is great :D I miss out on so much shit and it takes so much effort to try and catch up

I wanna cry LOl :(

Can't wait for the big bang theory to finish so I can laugh all my troubles away

bye

2012-02-08T03:30:00.001-08:00

I saw an antichrist symbol spray painted on an old run-down church's door today.

Also, I used to go home and turn on the news ... now I just go home and turn on

:(

LOL twas a very good day today :)

2012-02-06T16:50:00.000-08:00

Finished early today, wooh! LOL

Dearest Mother,

2012-02-04T22:51:00.000-08:00

My one button, you push it

Look what you've done

2012-02-04T15:10:00.001-08:00

I was enchanted to meet you, mysterious boy in my dream 8)

hi

2012-02-03T15:48:00.000-08:00

yo

LOL

So my music hsc ... LOl yep, we're talking about this again LOL Well, I guess my hatred towards it has somewhat subsided cause I've realised that I can actually the play the guitar and a band 6 is achievable!

LOL So I spent most of the holidays playing the 6 bars of Spain that Ben taught me and trying to learn Slow Dancing myself. LOL My third piece is one that I probably want to play the most but I have not started it at all. It's a special version and there are no tabs for it on the internet :'(

So I decided to learn a different song ... A song that is so similar Slow Dancing that I may as well just play slow dancing twice LOL Well, melodically it's different. But the style, structure and collection of techniques and such are like ... well LOL exactly the same o.O

Well, I guess this can go into my collection of "back up pieces" LOL I hope Ben can tab out that song I like. And I hope I can find a loop pedal LOL

Anyway, time for tutor LOL

2012-02-02T04:05:00.000-08:00

I hate this feeling

God, I feel so alone

LOL :(

Sad songs are definitely not making this better, but it's all I can seem to listen to

where are you, seriously. fucking hell

2012-02-02T04:00:00.000-08:00

I've been getting these really bad mood swings and I want em to go :'( GET OUT! LEAVE! RIGHT NOWWWW

LOl jokez

LOL see what I mean?! :'(

I'm not happy, but I have nothing to complain about

Anyway, I hope everything gets better

Goodbye

2012-01-29T21:18:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna be the very best, like no one ever was.

this belongs on twitter

2012-01-28T16:03:00.000-08:00

#worstwaytoendtheholiday lazy LOL :(

I spent the entire holiday studying and doing homework and crap and this last week, well ... I did nothing. Literally nothing. Didn't even feel like I deserved it, which might be a good thing LOL Anyway, I tried finishing all of Jimjamz homework but I can't find the will to ... go on LOL I'm just leaving it there to rot.

I also feel slightly hung over even though the party was 2 days ago LOL There's a throbbing in my head and all throughout church I felt like I might throw up. LOL okay, not the entire time but I did for a bit LOLZ

Anywho, I'd really like a new bag and a new pencil case and all those new things for school but I cbf to go and buy everything again and I still kind of want to use my pencil case till the end of high school :D (I've used this pencil case since year 7)

Yeah, so ... not much has changed since last year which is kind of boring. I hope our new timetables are fun and lots of good subjects are grouped together for a day full of awesomeness!! LOL ... um so yeah I'm just putting off doing homework. I think I'll watch something now

Good bye

2012-01-27T19:47:00.000-08:00

Despite having already started year 12 last year, the pressure of the upcoming term is really starting to take a toll on my mental stability. LOl okay, not really. But it's finally hitting me, we'll be the eldest in the school. Kids will look up to us ... and not just cause we're taller then them.

It feels kind of surreal. I mean, on the inside I'm still the same person as I was 5 years ago when I started high school, so I guess, in my mind it's kind-of-almost-not-really right for me to be where I am now. 16, year 12. LOL I guess this is what the past 5 years have been about. Working hard and learning all that we need to learn to conquer by far our biggest hurdle and be ready to face the many others that have yet to come.

It's just really weird. I don't think the level of maturity that I currently possess is suited for this LOL

I just realised that whenever I listen to music, I'm analysing it in my head LOL it is so fun but also DAMN YOU MUSIC!!!

Anywho, I am so excited for school!! This holiday has passed by so quickly, too quickly. Lets reflect...

[LOL I think I'm only doing this because I don't want to study or do homework xD]

Okay,

Col, Hellen and I biked to Stockies and we ate. LOl the pancakes were decent but their iced coffee was sucky

Me winning monopoly :)

We went to Superdish kind of late ... LOL all the workers were eating their late night meal of left overs and stuff LOL

Fairy bread for our "picnic" LOL

We were supposed to go picnicing near Garrisons Point, but Collin and I were too lazy to go cuz it was mega hot. I think by 6 we were all bored so Collin and Hellen came over and we decided to go skating :) Then Eeh and Danny met us at the park and then Trinh and Steven came. The boys and Hellen idk, made a circuit? or someshit LOl like an obstacle race around the playground area and they timed each others run of the obstacle LOL tres funny. Yeah so we vlogged throughout the night and everyone learned how to skate :D! The fairy bread was delish, thanks Jess. Oh no, it was no trouble, really :). Haha... LOL I need friends

Hole in the sky :O

Huynhs birthday trifle :) Eeh helped me make these LOL

Fuck, this was so good!!! LOL

Yeah, so Collin, Eeh, Hellen and myself, well, we went to Huynhs house to surprise him on his birthday LOL I think he was surprised.... I hope he was :D

Then we decided to go to Maroubra LOL

ii luv dis foto

You can tell I'm studying hard by my stern facial expression LOL (did that make sense? I don't even know)

While studying very intensely LOL I came across this recipe :) It's a muffuletta ... or something along those lines LOL It's pretty much a really packed sandwich cuz you take out all the white fluffy bits in the middle LOL

I like this one

Lunch with this fucker LOL It wasn't very nice... LOL

BEST GIFT!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH SNEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ (L)(L)(L)

Molikhas surprise birthday party was a great way to end the school holidays :)

Wow, longest post LOL okay, time to read falling petals :)

Good bye :)

2012-01-27T18:14:00.001-08:00

Giving up, letting go. Schools almost here, so I guess it's the right thing to do. Plus, I'll always have chemistry :) hehehe :$

2012-01-26T15:32:00.000-08:00

Something isn't right... I'm sad for some reason. Is this sadness? I don't even know. It just doesn't feel right... or normal or you know... It's like a mixture of all the bad feelings one can possibly feel all up inside my head. Also, I have cramps.

Damn, I feel better now LOL

Thanks blogger! :D

2012-01-25T02:59:00.000-08:00

I think ... I'm going insane....

I am so god darn bored at home and everytime I come home after a day out ... it feels like I didn't go out at all....

I WANT SCHOOL

WHERE ARE YOU?!

Lights fade

I'm not your anchor

2012-01-23T17:21:00.000-08:00

So don't hold on

I felt really very guilty yesterday. We got a day off from tutor so we could celebreate Chinese New Year and such, and I woke up with the intention of spending the day productively, studying. Bobs and I arranged to meet at the library but that plan was somehow scrapped and we went to Maria's house instead. There, we made steak and chicken wings which were uber delish. We watched this show called Awkward. which is so incredibly funny. Then, after we ate, we played charades until the sun set. It was lovely

My cousins came over last night. They brought their kids, their oh-so-adorable kids. The kids wanted me to play hide and seek with them. It was a really pointless game because my house is tiny. One of them, Angela, told me her favourite song is Dancing Queen by ABBA. I laughed a while when I heard this. She is seven by the way.

I love kids :) -no pedo, LOL danny nguyen-

cuz I really always knew that my little crime would be cold, thats why I got a heater for your thighs

2012-01-22T02:16:00.000-08:00

TRACK WORK ENDS IN APPROXIMATELY 5 HOURS

THIS HAS GOT TO BE ONE OF THE HAPPIEST DAYS OF THE YEAR FOR ME!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH

Also!

2012-01-21T02:46:00.000-08:00

Germany, Sweden, New York, Canada, New Zealand, Phu Quoc, North Carolina, Scotland, England, Wales.

Places I'd like to reside in someday ... with my built-in bookshelved library and my walk in wardrobe and pantry.

The tax rate in Sweden is 80%.

Okay, time to fold cranes and annotate the heck out of this kangaroo

counting cranes

2012-01-21T02:12:00.000-08:00

12 57 55 45 50

I'm excited for school!

I still have not attempted Jimbos homework.

I need to buy AAA batteries tomorrow for my calculator.

The coming week, I have tutor everyday except friday.

I'm realising that maybe music isn't so bad ... which is an extremely good thing :)

Every day for the past two weeks have consisted of homework and tutor.

With the exception of wednesday and thursdays of course, but guess what I did ...

Go on, guess :)

Yep. studying at the library LOL

Nerd 4 lyf

This better be worth it

My mum's been telling me for most of my high school life to surround myself with peers that have similar aspirations and such as I do. You know, hang with people who do chem, hang with people who can play the guitar ... maybe I'll learn something from them ... So I guess now I'm taking her advice and practising it

I've also discovered a new fondness for old school rap

Yep, goodbye

2012-01-19T03:21:00.000-08:00

I like to think about my future. Where I'll live, what kind of furniture resides in my house. For example, I'd really like a built-in book shelf which spans across an entire wall and a walk-in wardrobe. Yes, that is my dream house.

some dance to remember, some dance to forget

2012-01-18T14:30:00.000-08:00

I finished Gatsby again last night. I think I've cleared up a few of my own queries as to why we'll be studying this book for English LOL I seem to have blanked out and/or skipped over a very important page or two in my first reading LOL

Anywho, I have tutor 3 times today and I am quite excited :) We're starting the Acidic Environment in our usual chemistry lesson and I am quite excited :)

I have not touched any sort of maths homework whatsoever. LOL it is really bad, really. I start Jim jams again on Sunday and the week after we go back to school and I have a lovely 12 periods of maths waiting for me :(

I just realised, I quite like Jessie J's voice

LOL okay, time to fold paper cranes. OH! btw, I'm folding paper cranes LOL yep, 1000 LOL the oh so cliche goal, but I believe that if I believe this will work, it will grant someone temporary luck which will, hopefully, lead to eternal happiness :)

Do cranes bring about luck? or do they grant you a wish ... LOl I don't even know

Goodbye

p.s. I have cramps :( fuck :'(

p.p.s I need a thesaurus LOL

2012-01-16T22:57:00.000-08:00

Umat is actually quite fun. Go future! wooh :)

2012-01-16T02:30:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to feel the pressure of all this UMAT suff...

On a brighter note, Federer won his first match of the Aussie Open. Not that I doubted his ability to do so :) Go him!

All the best to my baby Nole :) I lup chuu estt. 2006 LOL

Anyway, the skin on my feet is peeling. I need to moisturise.

Good bye my lover...

what =========

2012-01-14T23:39:00.000-08:00

Every time I think I'm going at a moderate pace with all my studying and such, I think about drama. Gosh damn drama. FUCKING IP DIT ME MAY!!!!!!!!!!!! :'( I am so unmotivated to do anything :( And it's not the learning of the lines, perfection of movement etc etc that is putting me off... It's having to ghost write for these renowned authors and playwrights. I'm really very scared that I will ruin everything. I'm scared of having my work [although not MINE] being criticized. This is not English, it is drama. And although the two relate interchangeably I cannot face such ... heart breaking [LOL] critiquing of my? work .... LOL fuck. Why can't I find a monologue that does not require any, or very minimal alteration so I can work on my vocals and shit :(

Fuck the world

I suck :(

2012-01-14T15:24:00.001-08:00

So I've decided to do the UMAT exam. God, I hope this works out LOL

My dreams of a 93+ atar have changed. Instead, I've bumped it up to 96+ LOL wooh.... Gotta work hard this year, Jess. Make yourself proud :)

okay, time to go out LOL @____@ I should be studying... Oh well, I'll do it when I come back :)

good bye

2012-01-12T15:23:00.000-08:00

Everyone's been telling me that what I said was wrong, but I don't think so. I think it was the way that I approached the situation that was wrong. I should've told you. I did, but that's not what I regret. Maybe I don't it regret at all. But something isn't right

We found love

2012-01-12T14:38:00.000-08:00

I thought I said my post titles would be a bit more creative LOL ... They're just song titles. Oh, well. At least it's a good song

I've adopted my sisters room. All my stuff is here and I've downloaded all my programs onto her laptop and such LOL I can't wait until she moves out so I can have this :D the room I mean LOL. She's away for a couple days cause she and her friends decided to hire a beach house out in Port Stephen. I don't know when she comes back. Lets hope it's not anytime soon LOL

I've resumed tutor. The break was too short. You'd think 3 weeks is enough, but it ain't, yo. IT AINT!! I now have to attend 4 tutorial lessons for chem ontop of my regular classes and I also have a tutorial for English on saturday. I'm so glad jim jamz gave us 4 weeks holiday :) he's the bomb diggity LOL Okay, that was very weird. Moving on..

I think we need to BBQ or beach or kill two birds with one stone and BBQ and beach simultaneously.

God, I am so boring LOL

OH it was Huynhs birthday 2 days ago. We surprised him by coming over unannounced. Yep, we came over and it made his day. That's all we did LOL only joking, Eeh and I made him trifles the day before and Hellen, Collin, Eeh, Danny and I went to woolies before we headed to Huynh's and we bought waffles and other assortments which complimented the waffles very ... well LOL What am i saying? Why am I awake this early... LOL =======

Anywho, we missed our bus by like 2 minutes so we decided to eat/ drink coffee/chill, and that was what we did, yes... LOL When we got to huynhs and we finished our waffles and he received his present [lol] we somehow decided to go to the beach.

This was very impromptu, when we got off at central we hadn't even considered what beach we were going to, but we saw a bus that said "Marboubra Beach" and we decided to hop on. Marboubra is very nice. It was also a lot of other things. It was cold, it was windy, it smelled like old seaweed and sewerage but the sand beneath the surface was very warm. Because it was a fairly hot day, the waters high specific heat capacity kept the sea water warm :) I shouldn't have frolicked in the water so many times cause every time I got out of the water, the wind would blow the very dry, fast and sharp sand onto my very sensitive-skinned legs LOL it hurt like a mother fucking hoe. I think Hellen and Huynh got cut by the sand too.. LOL

But after we got over the fact that it was windy and cold, we played a tips for a bit and then we took various photos of the sun set and the red clouds and the double rainbow, yep ... intense. Everyone but Eeh then burried their legs in the sand LOL because that's totes cool. The sand was also very warm, the sand that was underneath the .. surface LOL that is. I am so redundant at times. Sorry, anyway.

Despite the weather shredding us to bits, it was a very fun evening and I'd love to do it again :)

I also caught up with Danny LOL that was nice. We bought our Future tickets. I don't know how I'm going go yet.... I still want Big Day Out :( FOSTER DA PPLZZZZ

Um ... so yeah. You're a selfish cunt.

ALSO LOL the first episode of the final season of One Tree Hill was released yesterday. The beginning was so intense. The rest of the episode was ....................................................................................................................................................................................................................

Disappointing LOL Maybe I'm just not used to the whole inversion of the main complication/s being shown at the beginning instead of the middle or end.

Okay, good bye

PS danny, you owe me thai.

2012-01-12T03:35:00.001-08:00

Fuck, my head

so what we smoke weed

2012-01-09T00:35:00.000-08:00

so what we go out, that's how it's supposed to be

I'd like to apologise in advance, my title was a little misleading LOL there has not been a day yet in this holiday where I've engaged in teenage rebellion, the norm. Perhaps this is a change of pace? I guess it's the convention ... studying... it is our last year at high school after all. OH NO OUR LAST YEAR?! :'( I love high school LOL

Anyway... LOL

I guess I'll recap my day today, nothing exciting ever happens to me so I guess you guys have to bare with LOL

I woke up today with the heaviest eyes. Spent the day jumping between doing my chemistry homework, watching big bang theory and eating like a hoe. I've been catching up with Kevin. He's ... LOL I don't want to say difficult but to some extent LOL okay, I'm only joking. I like talking to him, we share many similar goals all the while remaining two very very very dissimilar entities LOL He's a douche bag, but a funny one at that. Okay, this post is getting really weird now LOL

I'm currently working on Huynhs present :) I hope he likes it cuz I put my heart and soul into it. I cut up little pieces of rainbows and ponies and smiles and shoved it right in there, ya hear?!

I've also discovered a new hobby of mine :) Yup, screwing and unscrewing screws LOL it's so gosh damn fun! I opened the back of my calculator today to see if it used a button cell or a triple A battery. I uses a AAA battery. Anyway, I think I was playing with the screws too much when I replaced the backing and now it does not work LOL Oh well! New calculator for Jess :)

Speaking of calculators. Collin the cunt didn't want to go Office Works with me today
ALSO OMG CITY, OMG I'M GETTING MY BIG DAY OUT TICKET TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!! hell yeah :) Foster the People and Parkway Drive here I comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee whewwwwww

I mixed a halfcup-full of aeroplane jelly mix with pepsi today LOL the back of the packet told me to be creative, so I tried it out. Hopefully this turns out okay - okay being not disgusting but not so good that I'd be wanting more. Okay. So I filled the rest of the cup with pepsi. This left me with an open can of pepsi and a thirst which seemed to be unquenchable by water. I'm currently finishing off the can. This lead to my thinking that I am somewhat, a fat lazy slob-hoe LOL I need exercise, and I need it now. STAT!!!

I miss bike riding, just for the fun of it. Now I don't think I'd leave the house on my bike if it meant I'd be riding alone. Oh how dependent I've become.

This is bad guys, really bad

Okbye

2012-01-08T17:01:00.000-08:00

i like your company LOL ...

I should start writing longer posts...

I'll leave that task for another day

goodbye

2012-01-07T16:18:00.001-08:00

Happiest of birthdays Alexandra!!!! (L) sososo sorry I can't make it today :(

I am so tried right now. I don't even know why, I had 11 hours sleep... gah

Anyway LOL last night Collin, Hellen, Eeh, David and I were star gazing and I saw a shooting star!! No joke! Omg, I was so happy I kept yelling "I saw a shooting star, I saw a shooting star!!!" and they were all "WHAT? MAKE A WISH YOU DUMB BITCH!!!!!" only joking, they didn't call me a dumb bitch, but if they had... HOW DARE THEY?!

Also, Col took out his phone and started playing with this star .. app LOL There was this very bright, lone one in the sky. I asked him what it was and apparently, it was mother fucking Jupiter!!!!

So, shooting star and Jupiter all in one night, what could be better? :O

2012-01-07T01:16:00.000-08:00

I was such an angsty fucker back then. I am so gosh darn sorry guys!!! LOL

2012-01-07T00:51:00.001-08:00

I have a headache and I feel very lost

2012-01-06T06:19:00.000-08:00

I'd just like to take some time out of my really very busy schedule and wish my Mum a wonderful birthday (L)

LOL okay, good bye

2012-01-05T20:48:00.001-08:00

Just read an e-mail from Nathan. I don't know if it's discouraging or inspirational ... LOL I'm scared now.

2012-01-05T16:10:00.001-08:00

Wow, what was I talking about? LOL

2012-01-05T15:55:00.000-08:00

Going to read that letter I wrote to myself LOL Yay.... I kind of don't want to ... LOL oh well, I'm bored. Why not?

2012-01-04T16:09:00.001-08:00

I'm asking you to shape my heart, I wanna be your work of art

2012-01-04T00:00:00.000-08:00

I'll make excessive eye contact with you to strengthen our limerence :)

2012-01-03T17:39:00.000-08:00

I don't like change :(

One Tree Hill is ending and Amy and Rory are leaving. School's gonna be over and I'll have to make new friends :'(

I'd like to loop time, like on the 22nd of April at 5:02 pm.

Anyway LOL my attempts at studying have been rather poor. I can only seem to study Chemistry properly. Anywho, it's time to get back to work.

Goodbye

Inside in inside out

2012-01-02T15:22:00.000-08:00

It's been a pretty eventful 3 months or so LOL ... I'm too lazy to type, here have some photos!

LOL we snuck in a photo while Santa went to shake hands with some business people up the stairs

We were shouted this when we went to Vietnam LOL It was good, I think ... LOL I didn't actually eat it... LOL

This is what Huynh and I chose for Eeh to wear to As You Like It at Belvior. It was really good by the way, the play LOL heaps funny and that, a slight modern twist etc etc. LOL

Post-Belvior

Our Christmas party at Huynh's :)

My beautiful Penny :)

Dalena's Christmas party THERE WAS SO MUCH SEAFOODDDD OMG LOL too bad I didnit eat any :(

From my balcony at Surfers Paradise LOL

Glow Worms

Glow Worms + flash (LOL my bad xD) OMG THERE WAS ALSO A GLOWING MUSHROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Sunrise LOL I'm starting to sound a bit reduntant

Sticky Date pudding, nothing compared to the one at V Lounge I must say

LOL Christmas with the girls, we were outside singing to Adele and dubstep, mosquitoes started biting us so we burnt some incense and candles LOLZ

Bike riding with Col and Lyanna to the island. Saw the ugly duckling LOL omg, i just typed "fucking" instead of "duckling" just then LOl oh muscle memory xD anyway LOL who turned into the beautiful swan :)

Eeh joined me for New Years eve, we kissed passionately under the bridge LOL jokes, ew fucking incest :L

Our view, yo

Fishing at South Cronulla LOL Thanks again, Lyanna! :)

I found a Starfish LOL

At Manly

LOL So then we went back to Hellens house and watched Beauty and the Beast until the next day :)

Oh Look! It's How I Met Your Mother!!!

Good bye (:

2011-12-30T22:31:00.000-08:00

I have to leave in 30 mins. I kinda really cannot be fucked LOL but I don't wanna stay home by myself so I guess there's no other option.

Anyway, let's recap the year LOL

It was good. Yup.

I have a massive pimple on my chin boo :(

I'm hungry LOL

I hope tonight is fun

What should I wear? It's a bit late but i keep changing my mind LOL

I'm really excited to go out next year LOL next year, that's tomorrow!! Yup, good one Jess. Anyway LOL I want to swim at a nice beach and I want to like ... have fun lol

OH NO, WERE THOSE RESOLUTIONS?!?!?! D:::::::::::::::::

It wasn't my intention ... to brag but I've got him where I want him now

Oh paramore

Anyway LOL I thought I'd just kill some time blogging but it didn't work out very well

Good bye

Have a happy New Year blogger :)

2011-12-29T04:07:00.000-08:00

In under 49 hours, I can read that blog letter I wrote to myself. I don't know why I'm so excited about this LOL New Years Eve parties can wait, I've go a letter written to myself to read hehe LOL

2011-12-29T02:39:00.001-08:00

MARY AND MATTHEW 4 EVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD :')

2011-12-24T04:57:00.000-08:00

Brisbane, here I come!

OH! MERRY CHRISTMAS!! LOL

2011-12-22T22:59:00.001-08:00

I've been really bad :(

I didn't follow my study time table today and now I feel like ... bad LOL anyway, I think I should study to make up for it.

Goodbye

blogging while waiting at the park for Dono

2011-12-22T16:32:00.000-08:00

I used to be so bothered. It took a lot out of my time, but i didn't really seem to mind. I miss that. Doing things for others and getting that feeling afterward, that feeling of satisfaction and toned legs LOL

2011-12-22T15:06:00.000-08:00

following my study timetable is actually quite fun LOL

2011-12-21T01:01:00.000-08:00

CYNTHIA, TRUE BLOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

also, i have a new study timetable. it's colourful

just an ordinary day

2011-12-20T18:53:00.000-08:00

Jess: I wanna be a billionaire, so fucking bad

Dono: I wanna be australian so fucking bad
all the meatpies that i could haveeeeeee

LOOL :)

So...

2011-12-20T18:09:00.000-08:00

I just watched the season finale of Dexter and, wow... WOW LOL

Dexter never fails to surprise me. Eeh told me something about it and that got me thinking about the ending. I came up with like a thousand possible endings in my head but it was never that. GOD IT WAS SO GOOD LOL

ANYWAY, Legit Christmas Party yesterday was like, awesome LOL Eeh, Collin and I went to his house early so we could cook and such. Bobs came 20 mins later with Trinh and we all started decorating :D The food was so fun to make LOL The candles at night were really fun.

Here, have some photos

The ham was extra delicious, thanks Eeh!

ALSO, goodbye LOL

:(

2011-12-20T16:41:00.000-08:00

Guys, this is gonna be the WORST CHRISTMAS EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! :'(

I leave for Brisbane the morning before the Doctor Who Christmas special comes out and and..... and......... that means, I AHVE TO WAIT 3 WHOLE FUCKING DAYS UNTIL I CAN COME HOME AND WATCH THE SHIT OUT OF THAT EPISODE :'(

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

what is the meaning on christmas? is it this? oh fuck, i have cramps

2011-12-17T15:49:00.001-08:00

i have work soon .... lol

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2011-12-17T14:38:00.000-08:00

should i list the things i have to get done this holiday? LOL why not, i'm already procrastinating.... haha ... ... ... ...

why do i even keep a blog anymore LOL

ANYWAY

I absolutely cannot wait to go shopping tomorrow with Huynh and Eeh! God, I've missed them so goshdamn much!!!!! LOL there's one thing I really don't like about the holidays and that's how lonely it makes me feel. I haven't seen either of them in 36 hours and my world just doesn't seem right LOL I like school, it provides stability, routine. Can't never get enough of that now can we ;) The day after will be out legit shit Christmas Dinner :D LOL cannot wait for that, hopefully things turn out alright I cannot wait to try the ham and the turkey and the ribs and the oysters and everything omg :)

I leave for Brisbane on Christmas day and come back on the 29th. The 30th I'll be spending my time with the girls LOL good things should happy on that day, I'm expecting lots of tears :')

Then we have new years and new years barbecue.

I'll also be trying to squeeze in chem revision, maths homework, jim jams homework, belonging revision and practising my HSC pieces amongst all uh.. mayhem LOL Have to work on my IP for drama. Why did I choose music exclamation question marks

Oh reading, yes reading LOL reading is always good :)

Should I make a study time table? LOL hm... hm...

2011-12-17T14:33:00.001-08:00

trying to turn things into movie scenes in my mind LOL

2011-12-17T01:57:00.001-08:00

there is only one word that can describe what i'm feeling right now

LOL okay, now that i've got that out of my system

:'(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

i

why

miss

dont

you

2011-12-15T02:25:00.000-08:00

I've decided to become really gangster at the worst possible time LOL only joking! It's been a hectic week, thank god everything is over! All that's left to do is go to As You Like It at Belvoir tomorrow :)

Eeh and I are going to be shopping for clothes for Tuesday too :) I'm so excited :D

Anywho, let's recap the happenings of this week LOL

I had my chemistry topic test on Monday, it was extremely easy. A bit too easy if you ask me... I have a feeling they're going to make the marking criteria really specific, like they did for the prac exam. I don't understand why they always make these exams super easy and have the marking criteria fuck everyone up the ass. They should just make harder exams, honestly.

Anyway LOL now that that's out of my system, on Tuesday I found out that I had to fill in for Jenny at Presentation Day ... I really wanted Sally to do it :( But yeah, anyway LOL it was scary, I had to try so hard not to laugh on the assembly LOL Bobs and Dat were so funny! Also, things got really hot, thank god I never have to do that again LOL

I had my chemistry tutor exam today. It was okay, easy. I sound really up myself right now, but honestly LOL I don't know what they're all doing, these tests are unnecessarily easy. OH Huynh, bobs, snez, nita and a few other people worked the radio with me today at lunch. Twas fun!

Okay, I'm boring. And tired.

Go away

2011-12-13T01:54:00.000-08:00

not happy with the start of my hsc

sigh, i want a restart

2011-12-11T23:22:00.000-08:00

Just an old friend coming over now to visit you and that's what I've become. I let myself in though I know I'm not supposed to but, i never now when I'm done. And i see you fogging up the mirror, vapor round your body glistens in the shower and I wanna stay right here, and go down on you for an hour. Or stay and let the day just fade away. In wild dedication take the moment of hope and let it run. Never look back at all the damage we have done now to each other. But when I see you, it's like I'm staring down the sun. And I'm blinded, there's nothing left to do.

2011-12-11T23:21:00.000-08:00

i saw third eye blind this year (L)

2011-12-11T03:39:00.000-08:00

Looking a random photos of InuYasha and I feel like watching it again LOL okay, downloading now, okay bye

2011-12-11T00:54:00.001-08:00

the days you used to care about me, those are the ones i miss the most

Tonight

2011-12-09T14:45:00.001-08:00

Ngay nao em hat

Wishing my baby gurl Nita a very happy 17th LOL HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

Anywho, Yesterday was one of the very many stressful days that I so rarely come across, so the course of it left me quite drained. I had to finish the candy canes off, so I got some help from Eric, Jess and Bobs and once everything was underway, I left them to go driving - 2 whole consecutive hours with mal zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

It started off great, it really did LOL! But idk what happened towards the end, I couldn't do much right LOL well, I could turn and such just fine but I kept forgetting to look and all that LOL

After two tedious hours of driving I went to chem, got my mark, as not happy LOL I need to scab some marks now :)

That went by really quickly cause apparently, I was really late to class LOL <>

Maths was maths, talking about chem and Othilia dropping extension english D::::::: NOOOOOOOO LOL Steven also stole Celinas money which was pretty funny LOL

Had to write a reflection in music. I gave myself a 15/20 LOL

Got my sizing done at lunch, checked up on candy canes, and finally practised my drama monologue LOL I went first. Bobs laughed during mine, I tried to stare him down but that would mean I'd be out of character so I didn't. Next time, I'll do a happy monologue just for E :D

I'm working in the holidays. Gotta make some $$

I was so drained I had a nap after school LOL which made my panicky cause I had to rush to get ready for Nita's.

We ate at Holy Basil which is like the bomb LOL I love their salt and pepper calamari!!! Enjoyed pleasant conversation LOL Then headed off for desserts, played the longest game of shoot shag or marry. I AM SO SORRY COLLIN :( LOL AND then commenced our adventure.

We hopped on a bus and went to Little Vietnam. It was a nice place, strangers bought us food and we sang happy birthday to one of them LOL it was great spontaneous fun LOL

okay I'm hungry now LOL

goodbye

2011-12-08T01:55:00.000-08:00

Double dose of Mal tomorrow, can I survive?

2011-12-07T00:46:00.000-08:00

Fattest school, honestly

That's not even half ... LOL

Anywho, I am so fucking tired.

Things just seemed to get worse as the day progressed

Can't wait to go out to dinner/drinks with Bobs, Cathy and Mack LOL [really hoping this happens xD]

I should be studying for chem and drama and practising for music, but I'm not feeling up to it

Okay, bye.

trains, sewing machines

2011-12-06T02:23:00.000-08:00

Dearest Santa Claus,

Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell

Please :)

Thank you in advance, hehe :)

Marry Christmas!

2011-12-05T23:12:00.000-08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

HIMYMMMMMMMMMMMM

:'((((((((((((((

saddest episode :(

2011-12-05T12:41:00.000-08:00

I love how extension english relates so easily to drama LOL too bad i dropped dat shit :(

2011-12-04T20:52:00.001-08:00

All of my intense exams are over.

I still miss Mackenzie :(

2011-12-04T01:30:00.000-08:00

the more work I do, the more discouraged I feel =/

2011-12-03T15:56:00.001-08:00

Let's go chase the sunset, bring me the horizon

2011-12-03T15:23:00.000-08:00

You inspire me.

Not in the way that you inspire many other people, no not like that at all. I want to make people proud, just like you did. I want to make myself, proud. I may not be as intuitive as you but I'll be just as hard working. At least, I think I'll try to be. You've earned the respect of many and you will still in the near and distant future, and I want that too. Maybe not on the same scale as you have but I want to at least, respect myself.

I want the outcome to make me happy

I want to show them that maybe, all their efforts weren't just a waste of time

I want to be like you

2011-12-01T20:59:00.000-08:00

Its been a while, I guess. I think I've made things awkward. Sorry if I did LOL well, you haven't called so I guess that's that.

Anywho, the past few weeks have been somewhat stressful. Exams and that... but it's almost over! And you know what will happen then, right?

CHRISTMASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

WOOOOH

I love christmas :)

Also, I kind of slammed my car door on my fingers and now they hurt like hell, still. It's been 3 days! LOL And I can't wait to receive the gift Eeh is getting me :) BTW HUYNH, LYANNA, BOBS, WHOEVER LOL TELL EEH TO GET ME A GIFT 8) I also cannot wait for ... hold up, let me make a list LOL

Things Jess cannot wait for! :
- Christmas party at Huynhs
- Ribs
- Christmas in Brisbane
- Christmas with the girls FRUIT SALADDDDDD
- 3unit exam to be over
- Candy canes to be distributed
- Chem exam :) I need to ace this
- Fingers to heal so I can play guitar
- Opening presents
- Others opening presents I got em
- Book shopping spree
- Boxing day sales
- New years eve
- New years BBQ
- Turkey
- New amp
- Taylor Swifts concert

...
...

LOL

Okay, I'm boring.

Go away

:)a

2011-12-01T03:26:00.000-08:00

Hello December

2011-11-29T02:50:00.000-08:00

Seasons greetings, Cynthia Luong!

I'd just like to take some time to tell the world that I am like .. really awesome. And if you would be so kind to tell the HSC markers this, it'd be much appreciated.

Okay, goodbye!

the worst things in life come free to us

2011-11-27T20:23:00.001-08:00

I think I've come to terms with the fact that I am going to fail my music HSC LOL. And that's okay because ...

Okay, I swear I had some sort of reason to justify that LOL!

Well, I guess it's just okay then. No worries.

Anywho, I feel so free now that my viva voce is over and done with LOL I can now get on top of other things ... like :) LOL only joking I've got to study for english advanced and mathematics and extension 1 mathematics and I've also got to remember the lines to my monologue. No worries. And I have to hand out more candy cane forms. They've also got to be collected next week. Then I can count the amount of candy canes and order em from the suppliers. No worries.

No fucking worries.

Got no home of me own, got enough to do.

Dang, if only I were Ruby LOL oh well

2011-11-27T20:21:00.001-08:00

End of your grieving cycle, Bubba? :)

2011-11-26T21:56:00.000-08:00

Hi Othilia :) LOL

Just wanted to let you know that I bought honey mustard sauce today. Also, I think I'm finally at that stage where I can honestly say I'm ready for my viva voce.

Okay, bye :)

2011-11-25T05:27:00.000-08:00

Hello World! This is me :) I'm on past 12 am hehehehehehehehe

2011-11-25T00:51:00.001-08:00

This feeling

What am I supposed to do about it?

2011-11-24T14:09:00.000-08:00

Dearest Viva,

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!?!

:'(

-Jess

2011-11-23T01:39:00.000-08:00

I get it, really I do. I've known it all along and I think the others have too. It just hurts, you know? Someone you think would never leave, does so. And I understand that it makes them happy and I understand that I and them have to be there when the time comes. But what about us? What do we do until then? This isn't a scheme to sabotage their happiness, it's a way of trying to fulfill ours, or maybe just mine. I miss him, so much. He's there physically but not mentally and the thought of accepting that is just unbearable. He is no longer the boy that can rid all my troubles with one simple joke. He won't, not until he needs me. But what if I need him? What happens then? He's no longer around, I know I can't change it. I know that even if I even try to, things will be different, he is so different. It's not real, this. It's just a way to cope. We all need to find a way to cope.

2011-11-22T21:46:00.000-08:00

This coming week 10, I'm going to treat myself to a book shopping spree :D online .. hehe LOL or in store, who knows things might be cheaper cause of Christmas and that.

Anywho, Maths, you are my greatest hurdle.

2011-11-21T03:24:00.001-08:00

why is everything so shit?!

what is the meaning on life?

LOL jk

2011-11-21T03:03:00.001-08:00

please let me have this, please

2011-11-20T03:43:00.000-08:00

5 more posts until my 666th post

2011-11-19T15:03:00.000-08:00

Advanced
Drama
Chemistry
Physics
Maths
Ext 1 maths
Ext 2 english
Geography

That would've been the best

Oh fucking well, regrets and mistakes memories made blah blah blah

long time running

2011-11-19T14:24:00.000-08:00

Things will get better in the end. If they're not better, it's not the end.

I guess it's the end then

2011-11-17T00:58:00.000-08:00

2011-11-13T22:28:00.001-08:00

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2011-11-13T01:46:00.001-08:00

I want faculty for drama, chemistry and slr :@

2011-11-12T14:26:00.000-08:00

Unbelievably apathetic. I don't like this.

Okay, now apprehensive LOL fuck meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

wtf is wrong with me

2011-11-11T23:40:00.000-08:00

It's mid term 4 of year 12 and I'm either almost or passed the first half of all my books. This tells me that I need at least 3 more books for each subject, on top of the ones I already have for each. I'm not out of hole paper though so, all good :) Hole paper is so handy!! I love it LOL Thanks for introducing me, Annie.

Can't wait for the book sales in the summer holidays :)

I think, when I was younger, like in primary school, the school provided us with books for each subject LOL I'm not entirely sure but, wow, that was nice of them LOL

I miss primary school.

We should go visit again :)

Roaccutane is making my bones or muscles or whatever, my innards hurt like fuck

2011-11-11T15:41:00.000-08:00

My decisions are well ... pretty decent. My ability to make decisions early is fairly flawed. My driving instructor, Mal always says I make my decisions incredibly late and that I could die or kill a cat or something. He keeps pestering me to make early decisions and he likes to conjure up unbelievably hypothetical situations to try and enhance my driver judgment and expose the flaws of the world and the stupid people that inhabit it. He asked me if I'd drive into someone who ran across the road even after they'd seen me driving. Cause, obviously, they're trying to commit suicide. Put em out of their misery, he says.

Anywho, back to my decisions. I always complain about thinking I know what I want and in the end, not wanting it ... heh .. heh.. I'm terribly terrified that the next decision I make will be the wrong one. But, I guess there's no harm in trying. This isn't even a 100% guarantee.

Okay, time to leave.

Goodbye.

2011-11-10T22:10:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah LOL reports LOL pretty well done, Jess! LOL

But I cant help getting the feeling that you could've done better.

I guess it's inevitable unless you ace it LOL

You almost did, don't worry :)

Stop beating yourself up :D

Okay, so it's time to make a few calls, no staying home on a Friday night :)

2011-11-10T22:07:00.001-08:00

bored. got homework. don't want to do it. want to go out. help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2011-11-10T02:45:00.000-08:00

Okay, 90 for all my subjects, band 6 or not.

LOL 90% for 3 unit. I can do this. I swear, I can.

2011-11-09T21:10:00.000-08:00

Hello Danny Huynh, I love you.