fodmn i think you dont care anymore
danzodanzo i sooo do care :(
fodmn well you sure have a funny way of showing it :(
lol, that wasnt directed to danny though, babe.
there are so many things i wanna ask you about and say to you, but im not going to.
because these things will change. can you feel it now? these walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down.
i hate that im even thinking about this. maybe its hurting me so much because there may be a hint of honesty in these thoughts. but i dont want there to be.
i dont wanna be another one of your broken records, but i miss you and i love you.
i love you the most.
thats it, LOL
nah, it was pretty epic. i was pretty emo by the end LOL but now that i think about it, it was pretty beautifully pretty :):):)
my new fave band- rolo tomassi LOL not but theyre pretty awesome.
i lost danny and dalz and dom but i found jo LOL and we just sat around all day .. after paramores
i so regret not going to see anyone else but who cares LOL we watched janes addiction, and jimmy eat world and we listened to placebo and afi.
i didnt get a band tee which sucked suck they only had Large sized rolo tomassi shirtz and like the you me at six ones were butt ugly.
i think i saw some dude from my school LOL not sure tho. me and jo ran into fiona and ummmm bought oj and went to her friend robert and sat and like sat even more and
we couldnt find dalz or danny so we just sat... LOL <>
we left a bit early, and that made us real happy but today i was fully crying over the regret i have for leaving LOL :(:(:(:(:(:(:(
the youmeatisx pit was fucking lethal. it was worse than taylor swifts push pit :'( LOL but the mosh was pretty great :) good start to the day. paramore were amazing, duh. some drunk guy was pushing his way through the front and i think when he passed me he touched this dude gf or something or bumped into her or something and that guy like smashed him ... LOL which was wow .. but LOL I WAS 6TH ROW FROM THE FRONT AT PARAMORES PIT :D and like 3rd row for ymas ;D
looking back, it was great. but living it, it was shit LOL
anyway i saw rolo tomassi, gallows, youmeatsix, a bit of emarosa, eagles of death metal who were extremely piss-off-ey LOL 'do you digg it?' LOL ==; but they were pretty funny LOLZ alexisonfire who were fucking epic but played for way toooo long fuckerz :@ paramore who were over 40 mins late but who cares, they were amazing, um afi, placebo, janes addiction, jimmy eat world .. saw a tiny tiny tiny bit of travium LOL
i wish we couldve stayed at jimmy eat world for a bit longer. i so regret that day now :( omg LOL oh well, all good (Y) check rolo tomassi and their awesome screamo front woman out ;D
im about 41 minutes, ill be leaving for soundwave.
my mother lets me. which is great. but catrina ............... LOL lets just hope shes awake :D
i dont know if i should eat breakfast here or buy something at canley ......
my sisters waking up now LOL
okay, alls well :) let me just call catrina
my palms are sweating. my nerves are making me nervous and my heart is beating .... [well not shit] fast LOOOOOOOOOL brewww :) it'll soundwave in exactly 14 hours and 19 minutes.
i smell chicken.
im still reading dear john, im almost done. its real .......... good but not original. i guess your gna have to run out of unique ideas after writing about 13 books ayeeeeee?
ive put down 'convince my mother to let me go soundwave' on my personal goals for two consecutive weeks and i really need to do that! LOL omg ......... i couldve reminded her about it 10 minutes ago, instead i just stood there like a retard and walked back to my computer to read.
while reading i heard the fierce-ness in her voice as she spoke to my father. she is most definitely not in a good mood. so im going to remind her when she comes up stairs or something so it can sink in but also so she wont have enough time to come up with a million ideas and reasons to prevent me from going.
it wont be that hard. ive already told her and she sed no and i sed no to her no and she left it at that ... im just reminding her, i have to remind myself.
i see little gleaming sparkles of sweat on my hands.
im always assuming the worst, but i think everything will be fine. getting to fairfield at 8:30 wont be a problem. i wanna ride my bike but i dont wanna leanr it over night again. did i ever tell you guise wot happened? LOL wellllllll im assuming someone tried to steal it for it's seat was turned and the lock wasnt in the place i left it, the chain fell off its gear and well the cushioney thing on the handle bars was missing ... LOL yeah someone stole my handle bar thingo ROFL AHAHA
anyway, today wasnt a very pleasant day for me or other people .... we were continuously tormented by the weird sin cos 180-theaters and realized that weve been answering questions wrong and that you cant use rhetorical questions in essays :'(
my sister took me to fairfield, i had kfc and went shopping with her. she made a cheese cake. anyway, i was watching one tree hill feeling sorry for myself after the chat i had with cathy about future jobs and atars and that just reminded be about how the hsc is going to be hard. it sort of crushed or made me question my dreams of owning my sister and getting 92+ for my atar. though she received a uai, im rpetty sure theyre fairly equivalent and compare-able.
bonnie or juliana said 'this is so stressful .. i could cry' LOL and i almost did cry :'( ahaha not .. okay maybe ...... it is fairly stressful. oh well ill just listen to tash and ray and people and study fully on and cram, cramcramcram.
i tend to find myself singing out of the blue. it relaxes me. even though im sure i sound horrible.
ive been making heaps of well you could call them timetables .. for myself and ive decided to do my geography essay at school on monday and i think thats it ... ill do tutor throughout the week. i should finish to kill a mockingbird after i finish dear john, which should be pretty soon.. maybe even tonight :O
okay my mother is up stairs and i really dont want to remind her. okay maybe when shes in bed and im getting ready to go to bed ... okay okay let me say a prayer.
OH BTW THANK YOU GOD JESUS AND EXTRA TERRESTRIAL FORCES FOR MAKING CATRINA ALL BETTER SO SHE CAN GO SOUNDWAVE WITH ME TOMORROW :D
okay im gna read and when my mother has slowed down, ill remind her.
i hope your asleep baby, we have a big day ahead of us .. soon LOL
oh btw danzo you spelled pompeii wrong LOL are you sure you even do the subject? :L
time to sleep, so i can read in the morning :)
just came home from mass today with my sister.
as most of you dont know, its ash wednesday today which is the day that initiates lent, a 40 day period where jesus went into the desert. he ate and drank nothing and came out alive, thus proving he is god .. basically
anyway, i decided to give up sex and guitaring for lent and i chose to not eat meat today. the guitaring thing failed cuz i helped lyanna with some avril lavigne song LOL + im gna have a music assesment so i dont think it was the best idea. sooooooooo now im gna have to go 40 days without sex .. which shouldnt be too hard cuz ive spent over 14 years doing that, haha ;D
im starting to get a lot of homework, i think. but when its completed and everything i just find myself stressing over noting ahahahahah have i said this before .....? i think i have LOL sorry guise.
but yeah i have a geography essay, which shouldnt be too hard. a music assignment, which i will be completeing nowwwww. an english activity .. i will copy bonnie :) LOL or whoevers done it..
4 days till soundwave. im psyched in my head ...... LOL a bit. the weathers gonna be nice, and the uv isnt extreme so i dont think ill get sunburnt on my scalp. so im looking forward to it :) i hope catrinas well enough to attend school tomorrow cuz we got a test babe A TESTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. and if she is, shell be well enough to join me and dalz and danny and danny and dom and jo .. am i missing anyone? LOL at soundwave!!! :D
k, im reading a lot of my recent posts and im missing a lot of ings and stuff LOL so if you want, add them in where you see fit ;D
anyway, i hope your better baby (L)
gl guise on test tmr, i know everyone will ace it cuz consumer is easy peazzzyyyyyyy
onetreehill is so sad again dammit :(
currently consuming ;D
so i dont know if you read this still but i need you to tell me things.
im praying for you, but i dont know if thatll be enough.
i have real bad thoughts in my mind about well what we used to talk about, and i have this feeling that if i dont get there in time. well lets just say your life will be easier. i dont want to disturb you though LOL i dont know, my gut is telling me to go see you, ive followed my gut heaps of times before but it turned out all wrong.
so give me a sign, please.
ps, i dont wanna walk in on you and him fondling, so give me a sign for that aswell
i was kinda dreading this day. the day id see Taylor Swift for the first time. it was always too good to be true, i always thought that something bad would happen to me so i couldnt attend ie getting sick. WHICH I DID LOL. but i didnt matter cuz when i got there, the sickness just left my body LOL
when fiona and i got to acer arena, we had to get our tickets. we asked the ticketbooth lady and she looked like she didnt believe us so she started interrogating us about who we won with and like asking for her ID and everything. but we got them ;D;D;D;D;D;D
there was a massive que for some reason ... for 1 door i mean LOL but there were several other doors you could enter through and i think no one saw them .. LOL so we went through the doors fairly quickly, after buying a shirt each of course ;D THAT I WORE TO SLEEP AND AM WEAR NOW LOL :)
we patiently waited at door 19. we had orange wrist bands which allowed us to go down to the pit. or so we thought. dun dun dunnnnnnnnn LOL
when were entered, the lady didnt know wot the hell we were talking about, luckily LOL there were these two other people who also had them orange bands on, so the lady went down to ask another lady and the bets thing happened :'):'):')
i cant describe very well so ill draw.
I WAS RIGHT NEXT TO THE FUCK STAGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck me bro :D LOL all i could see were the back of heads and the movement of the bodies but it was okay, cuz gloriana touched me :') every singe one of them :') LOL
when it was time for taylor to play, about 20 more people were given the wrist bands so they joined us LOL it was epic. everything, every single song. the clothes she wore. the way she stood. the fearless ness in her voice LOL. the hype from the band.
OH I FORGOT TO MENTION. a lot of teenage boys and old men went LOL :) not even with their sisters/daughters but with other males. LOL okay moving on.
she played a super massive epic 2 hours, it wasnt over too quickly but it wasnt something we had to endure either. she engaged the crowds and everything :D LOL
let me just list the songs she sang for danny. you belong with me, fearless, fifteen, love story, hey stephen, white horse, youre not sorry, today was a fairytale or fairytale .. LOL, the way i loved you, tim mcgraw, teardrops on my guitar, picture to burn, our song and snd she closed with should've said no. not in that order tho LOL
IT RAINED NO'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she pauses after every song, almost like she posing for photos but i think shes just looking at everything and taking it in. after this one song, she paused for quite a bit so the crowd got louder and louder and louder and we kept going for well, it didnt seem that long but i pretty sure it was. she finally, after several minutes stopped us and said, "sydney, you have stolen my heart. i will always remember this night" and she semi teared up LOL well she did okay :@ i saw it LOL i caught one of her tears :') not LOL she wiped her eyes tho LOL.
she gave everyone at the back hugs when she went down there to sing fifteen and some other songs.
it started raining heart shaped confetti when she sang fairytale :') IM SO GLAD I KNEW THAT SONG :') LOLOL and video footage of her and taylor lautner from the movie 'valentines day' was on the big screen LOl like gnawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww (L)(L)
the violinist lady looked at me and fiona, pointed, winked and swayed with us LOL cuz we were looking at her when taylor was at the back of the mosh pit singing some song.
she did the remix of youre not sorry? i think it was, and 'wot goes around' by justin timberlake and there were those massive drums :) LOL and then LOL im jumping all over the place arent i? :L
THENNN she played piture to burn THENNN she sang shouldve said no. it had the water thing omg!!! LOL i didnt get wet tho :( WISH I DID!!!!
the water started raining no's LOL if you know wot i mean? guess you dont, oh well, you gta be there to understand LOL
so when it was time to go, everyone started picking up the confetti and throwing it up and everything. i have so many souvenirs from that night. hope i get more tonight. THATS RIGHT im going again tonight LOL hopefully :) LOL with larissa and her cousin LOL
i will post pictures up later LOL :)
oh the people that had the same orange wrist bands as us were named um i forgot the girls name LOL but the guy was johnny or something. they or he is going soundwave LOL to take photos, so i guess well be looking out for him now LOL :)
k, going to talk to my mother about tonight in a few minutes. wish me luck LOL
MY MOTHER FUCKING LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
==; :'( IM SO PMS-EY LOL MAYBE IM GNA GET MY RAGS SOON BUT FUCK ME
I HATEHATEHATEHAREHATEHATERHATEHATHATEHAGATEHATEHATEHATEHATHATEHATEHSTSHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHW HUDSON OMFG ==; YOU CANT BEING TO UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I HATE HER FUCK ME BROOO
ANDDDDDDDDDDD I REALIZED I SPENT SO MUCH ON S STUPID SCHOOL SKIRT BEEFORE CHEKCING HOW MUCH IT ACTUALLY WAS AT SHCOOL ==; I FELT SO BAD WHEN I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS 20$ AND NOW EVERYONES FUCKING RUBBING IN MY FUCKING FACE. FUCKING HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE CALL ME STUPID FUCKING FUCK MOTHER FUCKER I FEEL BAD ENOUGH ALREADY OKAY? FUCKFUCKFUCKYOUYOUYOYUOYUOYUOIUYOIERH;wrndsLBKNWSL;D/G nlaxjypoq3lreb;xcsnoig2
and on top, welll the bottom of all that i installed the stupid trail version on windows 7 and i dont have any internet connection, i cannot access my d drive and i have no fucking sound ==; i have all the files too fucking hell.
FUCK MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
RIGHT NOW THE THOUGHT OF GOING TAYLORS GIG ISNT EVEN MAKING ME ANY CHEERIER ==; FUCK MY FUCKING LIFE BRO. FUCK YOU, FUCK ME, FUCK THE SHCOOL, FUCK HUDSON, FUCK MY STUPID BIKE AND FUCK MY ASS OF A COMPUTER. WE SHOULD ALL DIG SEPERATE HOLES AND DIE IN THEM BECAUSE WE ALL SUCK