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Cross out
Friday, February 21, 2014 // 3:42 PM

Graduated high schoolKissed someoneCollected something really stupidSmoked a cigaretteGot so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement parkGone to a rock concert. Helped someone.Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time without sleep. Lied to someone. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class.Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Been in a car accident. Been in a tornado.Been to a funeral. Burned yourself (not on purpose) Ran a marathon.Cried yourself to sleep.  Spent over $200 in one day. Flown on a plane.Cheated on someone. Been cheated on. Written a 10 page letter. Gone skiing. Been sailing. Have a best friendLost someone you loved.Shoplifted something. Been to jail. Dangerously close to being in jail.Skipped school. Had detentionGot in trouble for something you didn’t do. Stolen books from the library. Gone to a different country.Dropped out of school. Watched the “Harry Potter” moviesHad an online diary. Had a yard sale. Had a lemonade stand. Actually made money at the lemonade stand. Been in a school play. Been fired from a job. Swam with dolphins. Taken a lie detector test. Voted for someone on a reality TV show. Written poetry. Read more than 20 books a year.Gone to Europe.  Loved someone you shouldn’t haveUsed a coloring book over age 12. Had surgery. Had stitches. Taken a taxi. Seen the Washington Monument. Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once. Overdosed. Been in a fist fight. Gone surfing in California. Had a hamster/guinea pig. Pet a wild animal. Used a credit card. Did “spirit day” at school. Dyed your hair. Got a tattoo. Got straight A’s. Been on the Honor Roll. Know someone with HIV or AIDS. Made-out with someone. Played on a sports team. Snuck out of the house.  Swore at a teacher.  Gone laser taggingHad a romantic relationshipBeen on the TVFrench braidedSkinny-dippedDriven a carPerformed in front of an audience. Gone bungee-jumping. Been to Mexico. Crashed a car. Sky dived. Been kissed in the rain. Made an 11:11 wishDrank alcoholForwarded a chain letterMade a mistake.

Terrigal, an overview
Wednesday, February 19, 2014 // 6:10 PM

Here's to Em

Falling asleep on the second night
The way the owner spoke to me the morning we got there
Everyones dragged down mood because of what he said
Bobby not sharing the blanket (wasn't every night dw ;)
Beer Garden being closed when we got there
Being ceebs to go out LOL

Being ceebs to go out LOL staying in and partying was so much better
Beach errday
Avoca beach, diving
Diving into the waves @ Terrigal
Staying up to watch the sunrise
Too many tequila shots in too little time
Feeding dem birds
Cooking and eating together
Beer pong with a bottle cap
Michael Ma: "Guys... What level am I on?" BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA
Chinese whispers
Osly has 3 nipples and 1 nigh
Pussy pussy pussy marijuana
Star gazing
Finding that possum :)
Slow jam playlist - ty Collin + Maria
Hellen's book


Basically the beach tho. LOL

I'm latching onto you (Terrigal)
// 3:30 AM

 View from back porch
 Terrigal beach day 1
 He wasn't even posing LOL

 Night #2 #diemockz #pride

 Just showered
 Avoca Lagoon
 Avoca beach day #3
 Night #3. Drunk Steveo hugging everyone good night
 Steveo and Khin
 Sunrise with Huynh and Hellen

 I think this is Hellbell
 KFC for 4 am snack

 Dese birds couldn't get enough of me

 Sah tired
 Povo LOL
 Lunch with Kevin Dy #4
 Potato and leek soup at this raw food brunch place with Hellen, Trinh, Osly, Kevin and Collin
 Terrigal beach night #4 star gazing
 With these lovely ladies (and Hellen)
 Made a new friend

 Found these crazy chicks sleeping on the back porch
 me being a lad
 Swim Day #2
First visit Day #1

This time last year
Monday, February 17, 2014 // 6:50 PM

Em made us all write a post about our futures. What we envisioned, whether we'd make our dreams come true and how it'd all happen.

So a year has passed and I guess I've got an update.

2013 was the most eventful year of my life.

I started uni and it was everything I'd thought it be. There was lots to do and see and although I promised myself that I'd attend every lecture, that soon failed after the first week LOL Skipping lectures became a habit for me, but I got to hang with a lot of cool people during the breaks. I didn't study as hard as I'd anticipated and I guess I let myself down. I still managed what I aimed for but there's just this thing inside me which was let down cos I didn't give everything.

I learnt to drive and wreaked havoc on the roads LOL. KIK and various others accompanied me on many adventures. I got to explore Sydney and greater NSW with the people I love and it was great. I guess it's good to know your area. Now I've got a bunch of places to show all my relos and friends when they come and visit from overseas.

When we began our first real medicine oriented course in semester two, I was over the moon. It was so cool to be doing something like that. Every lecture was good and every prac class was even better. Through the long hours it really did solidify in me, my desire to pursue medicine. It was so frustrating and tedious but ultimately worthwhile.

I didn't really date anyone, but I guess I did learn more about myself and what I want and like. I had much help LOL (like in HIMYM, I bring much gold ahahahahaha)

I was a cocky little fucker and I didn't study at all for the UMAT. I was so upset with my score cos it was no where near what I achieved the year previous. Despite that, I guess the many experiences I've been through changed something in me because it allowed me to meet the cutoff in every section. I got an interview at the University of Newcastle.

The day of my interview, Hellen, Bobby and I woke up at 5 am and began our long trek to Newcastle. It was raining and I was a bit apprehensive about the whole thing. But when we were seated and orientated with everyone, things became so much simpler. I found two girls who are actually doing med sci and new south with me, Clara and Thuy. We talked for the entire afternoon about our lives, how we felt about the interview and how we all hoped we wouldn't see each other in med sci the following year LOL

Hellen and Bobs picked me up from the uni and we had a celebratory lunch. They bought me a congratulatory cupcake and wrote their goodbyes on a small card. I choked up when I found out how much they believed in me. We brought home our massive milkshakes and I said goodbye and thank you to them both. It was at the intersection of Railway and Bartley, about to turn onto my street, marveling at how well my interview went. Three cars ahead of me turned and I was in a daze so I thought, hey it's safe to go. But as I pulled my steering wheel I saw a light blue camry heading a little too fast in my direction. Everything happened so fast it didn't occur to me to speed up before my rear was hit and I ricocheted and hit two other cars waiting at the intersection. I felt a throbbing in my knee and left side and as I looked up, all I could hear was a screaming vietnamese woman and another yelling at me to move my car. I drove it, metal scrapping against the wheel and all to the closest place I felt it safe to stop. I walked back to the scene. All the contents of my trunk strewn over the street amongst broken glass from the other car. The vietnamese woman storming up towards me, inaudible yelling. I yelled, it was my fault. I take the blame, it was my fault. She was shocked, almost certain I'd yell back, but caught off guard by my honesty she continued to yell. It's all she could do. A man, calm and friendly asked if I was hurt, told me to trade car details. My phone had run out of batteries so I borrowed his wifes phone to call my dad. He came and helped me sort things out. He didn't believe it was my fault, considering the giant dent in the side of my car, but I was day dreaming. I was careless. I walked home. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to feel. I called Collin and Andrew cos I knew I couldn't go to Stereosonic the following day. I was traumatized and so afraid. I tried so hard not to break down in front of them. My sister came home and said something. I can't remember what it was. I cried myself to sleep.

Collin convinced me to go the following day. I was ready to drink and dance it all away, but every so often I would hear the bending metal, the shattering glass and my side would throb. It'd come quicker, the sounds. It'd repeat itself over and over until it became just a blur of distorted noise, blending in with the heavy bass, distorted. The second day it happened again. The noises came back and everything was blurry. I could see flashes of the park in my head. I kept my eyes closed. It's all I could see until Chad and Tim and Kevin were there to distract me.

I bought a new car

I forgot about all of that until today.

I went back to work at Dymocks. Promised all my kids I'd be back to tutor them next year because I thought rationally about my chances of getting into medical school and despite my endless desire, I knew I wasn't deserving. I told them I'd be back and later that day I was told that I no longer had a job there.

I was take aback. It didn't occur to me that I was fired until Tracey and I got to the party. I had many cigarettes with Eeh. He listened and stayed. I was devastated the entire night. Everyone thought that I was just tired and drunk, as I usually am. I was so... I just didn't know. I took off my clothes and jumped into the pool and as corny as it sounds, I felt everything wash away. I enjoyed the night. Smoking more than I should have and I headed home.

I had the best time over Christmas at Dymocks. One of my students, Michelle, visited me. She told me she was staying because a class mate, Sunita, convinced her to stay because I'd told them I'd see them next year. I didn't know how to tell her. I couldn't tell her. So I said, maybe. I might be moving. And then I spent the rest of the holiday hoping and praying and wishing with all that I had that I would move. Just so it wasn't all for nothing. I ran into Sunita last week at a cafe. She told me that I dogged them and she missed me. I was so disappointed with myself. I apologised, didn't know what else to say.

I was at B2 the night I was supposed to go back to work, had I still worked there. I almost cried. Jake came and saw that I wasn't right. He cheered me up. Great guy. Same thing happened the following Thursday. I was so lonely. I missed my kids. I told myself that I wouldn't get attached but I did. I couldn't shake this feeling until  began talking to Joey again. He reminds me of Kevin the way we keep joking around. It's nice.

He came to B1 and had lunch with me. He stuck around long enough for us to have dinner. He walked me home. We hung out with his mates. He walked me home. He told me he'd go to the beach with me, crazy as it was, it was raining. It was nice. He began singing to me. It awakened something inside. He kept singing and I stopped the car. He has really soft skin and I like it when he just lays on top of me. Things are so easy

He's not like anyone else

He's not a conquest

Nor is he just a number

I'm going to flip out later.

Life is great

Despite everything, I wouldn't have it any other way.

got you shackled in my embrace
// 2:15 AM

 Ikea and Costco with Maria, Erin and Collin. We got the fisherman's basket at Ikea
 Super sexy Ikea worker that we stalked
 Night before Australia Day. Eric and I found Drew's car and stalked him LOL
 Aus day sleepover
 Huynh and I weren't tired after our viewing of Cruel Intentions so we went to get maccas and watched the sunrise at mt pritchard
 Kurnell with Bobs
 A boat infront of the airport
 After Dono's bbq, we had a little road trip to Bay Vista in Brighton

 Midnight beach walk

 Garie beach with Maria, Em and Bobs

 How romantic. Em and Maria

 La Perouse. Steph, Snoop, Em
 Snorkel @ LP

 Cheesecake waffles
 CNY dinner at uncle #6's
 Chua Phouc Hue that night

 Happy New Year!!
 Visited Em on new years day
 This was a friday. We were outside Kenny's. Collin is topless

 Garie with my babe
 This fish we rescued
 so many nature

 We found at octopus. It was amazing

 On our way home we rescued a cyclist. His name was Vinh and he also studied med sci at unsw. It was fate ;) LOL jk
 Ground's of Alexandria with Maria before heading off to uni. Got our photos taken for google while at uni

 I lost maria who had my phone and she found me again. I also ran into my friend Albert here
 Coogee post uni with Maria and Albert