Seasons greetings, Cynthia Luong!
I'd just like to take some time to tell the world that I am like .. really awesome. And if you would be so kind to tell the HSC markers this, it'd be much appreciated.
I think I've come to terms with the fact that I am going to fail my music HSC LOL. And that's okay because ...
Okay, I swear I had some sort of reason to justify that LOL!
Well, I guess it's just okay then. No worries.
Anywho, I feel so free now that my viva voce is over and done with LOL I can now get on top of other things ... like :) LOL only joking I've got to study for english advanced and mathematics and extension 1 mathematics and I've also got to remember the lines to my monologue. No worries. And I have to hand out more candy cane forms. They've also got to be collected next week. Then I can count the amount of candy canes and order em from the suppliers. No worries.
No fucking worries.
Got no home of me own, got enough to do.
Dang, if only I were Ruby LOL oh well
End of your grieving cycle, Bubba? :)
Hi Othilia :) LOL
Just wanted to let you know that I bought honey mustard sauce today. Also, I think I'm finally at that stage where I can honestly say I'm ready for my viva voce.
Okay, bye :)
Hello World! This is me :) I'm on past 12 am hehehehehehehehe
What am I supposed to do about it?
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!?!
I get it, really I do. I've known it all along and I think the others have too. It just hurts, you know? Someone you think would never leave, does so. And I understand that it makes them happy and I understand that I and them have to be there when the time comes. But what about us? What do we do until then? This isn't a scheme to sabotage their happiness, it's a way of trying to fulfill ours, or maybe just mine. I miss him, so much. He's there physically but not mentally and the thought of accepting that is just unbearable. He is no longer the boy that can rid all my troubles with one simple joke. He won't, not until he needs me. But what if I need him? What happens then? He's no longer around, I know I can't change it. I know that even if I even try to, things will be different, he is so different. It's not real, this. It's just a way to cope. We all need to find a way to cope.
This coming week 10, I'm going to treat myself to a book shopping spree :D online .. hehe LOL or in store, who knows things might be cheaper cause of Christmas and that.
Anywho, Maths, you are my greatest hurdle.
why is everything so shit?!
what is the meaning on life?
please let me have this, please
5 more posts until my 666th post
Ext 1 maths
Ext 2 english
That would've been the best
Oh fucking well, regrets and mistakes memories made blah blah blah
Things will get better in the end. If they're not better, it's not the end.
I guess it's the end then
I want faculty for drama, chemistry and slr :@
Unbelievably apathetic. I don't like this.
Okay, now apprehensive LOL fuck meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
wtf is wrong with me
It's mid term 4 of year 12 and I'm either almost or passed the first half of all my books. This tells me that I need at least 3 more books for each subject, on top of the ones I already have for each. I'm not out of hole paper though so, all good :) Hole paper is so handy!! I love it LOL Thanks for introducing me, Annie.
Can't wait for the book sales in the summer holidays :)
I think, when I was younger, like in primary school, the school provided us with books for each subject LOL I'm not entirely sure but, wow, that was nice of them LOL
I miss primary school.
We should go visit again :)
Roaccutane is making my bones or muscles or whatever, my innards hurt like fuck
My decisions are well ... pretty decent. My ability to make decisions early is fairly flawed. My driving instructor, Mal always says I make my decisions incredibly late and that I could die or kill a cat or something. He keeps pestering me to make early decisions
and he likes to conjure up unbelievably hypothetical situations to try and enhance my driver judgment and expose the flaws of the world and the stupid people that inhabit it. He asked me if I'd drive into someone who ran across the road even after they'd seen me driving. Cause, obviously, they're trying to commit suicide. Put em out of their misery, he says.
Anywho, back to my decisions. I always complain about thinking I know what I want and in the end, not wanting it ... heh .. heh.. I'm terribly terrified that the next decision I make will be the wrong one. But, I guess there's no harm in trying. This isn't even a 100% guarantee.
Okay, time to leave.
Oh yeah LOL reports LOL pretty well done, Jess! LOL
But I cant help getting the feeling that you could've done better.
I guess it's inevitable unless you ace it LOL
You almost did, don't worry :)
Stop beating yourself up :D
Okay, so it's time to make a few calls, no staying home on a Friday night :)
bored. got homework. don't want to do it. want to go out. help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Okay, 90 for all my subjects, band 6 or not.
LOL 90% for 3 unit. I can do this. I swear, I can.
Hello Danny Huynh, I love you.
Matthew and Mary 4evaaaaaaaaa :(
There are always moments in time where you find yourself unconsciously thinking about ... stuff LOL I guess its better I know
Sorry, Eeh. Barney and Robin 4eva :)
Anyway, Drake's new album is da bomb!!!!!!!!!! I like, legitimately like every single song on the album LOL
So Huynh, Bobs and I went to Marias house today. We made a chocolate cake. We also turned on her vinyl player radio and just chilled, alternating writing stuff on her type writer and just laying on the bed talking the day away, making orgasm noises.
The thunder that came afterward kind of freaked me out. I took a cold shower cause it was just so goshdamn humid, then I went downstairs and it started rumbling, the sky. My lights flickered and the wind blew a plate off my counter top.
I ran into Albert before I went home. LOL he's pretty cool ... funny and that.
I couldn't do my maths homework. So I did my drama homework instead. It is actually pretty long but I got a fair bit done. I like this play, it's very powerful LOl 8)
Anywho, time to watch the season finale of Downton Abbey
I think I'll start giving my posts more meaningful titles ... LOL
You did get my high!
So, life feels pointless and I feel rather redundant now that I have no school work left to complete. My next assessment is in 3 weeks, which means we have not received the notifications for them and hence I cannot study .. not like I want to anyway.
Anywho, Bobs and I bought oysters again today! A dozen this time :D After we ate, we went back to school to usher the parents to the common room; the school was holding a community meeting. The food was prepared by the hospitality students and it was pretty bloody great :D
We took home the left overs! LOL Yum :)
Anyway, back to my pointless life.
So I just woke up from my very dream which does not seem to want to be remembered LOL
I do remember one thing however, I was shaving, right? and in my dream I grew really dark and prickly hair patches on my legs LOL fml, it was ew. Maybe it's a sign D:
Anywho, Cathy's was really fun! LOL And this just so happens to be my most productive weekend too! I've added to my viva, finished my essay, studied for chemistry and finally, FINALLY finished my tutor homework before class LOL and I also completed random homework here and there LOL
Time to breakfast
Also, I'm going to make myself a study timetable LOL
almost forgot LOL
My baby Cam and I LOL hehehe heheh hehehe :$:$:$:$:$:$
Danny, I miss you, you should come over sometime LOL
ENGLISH DONT MAKE NO SENSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I am like clueless .. what is this module about? how are we supposed to tie everything together in our essay? HOW THE F DO U STRUCTURE IT?! WTFFFFFFFFF :'( I wanna cry :( Lyanna, where are you?
So I drove again today. I was soooooo nitm to drive, but once I did it was fun again LOL I guess I was kind of scared that he'd yell cuz I didn't practise but he didn't mind :) LOL I think I am a bit more confident ... I bet when I'm driving an auto, I'll like own the streets LOL you have so much thinking to do when you're driving manual.
Anyway, I came to chem like 5 mins late. The class was doing a research thing. Miss left the room, so we decided to go on to Youtube from the smartboard LOL messed around on there ... watched Futurama ... kind of got told off when she came back but she got over it LOL!
Maths, I think this has become like one of my favourite subjects LOL I do really miss my old class, but the new ones just .. eh LOL I like sitting in front of Miss and talking to Othilia about random things like honey baked ham flavoured kettle chips OH and Costco LOL :)
Music was eh .. still regret choosing it. Why GODAMMIT WHY?! :'(
Anyway LOL people interfering with my lunch. Sat with Dono and friends .. they kept daring each other to do shit LOL it was funny :L
Drama was Kenna-less. Had two subs .. wandered the school dressed up like weirdos LOL good fun :) Went to the outdoor learning centre where the Japanese people were making ... something LOL and scabbed some food :)
ALSO drew crucifixes on a lot of peoples arms :L we're like a gang ... of Jesus lovers! LOL Slapped Davids ass ;) WOOOW!!!! LOLOLOLOL XDXDXD
Home, omg procrastinate, omg english, omg hard, omg penis, omg stress, omg panic, omg THIS FUCKING RETARDED FEELING THAT MAKES ME FEEL UGHHHHHHHHHHHH
hello snoopy! :)
OMG LOL idk why, but it was kind of a not good day :( LOL
Maybe it's cuz Charlies never coming back :(
But idk! omg, I wasn't and still am not even sad, but somethings bringing me down, yo.
Wtf is dis, gtfo.
I was very home sick today. LOL. Since I left for school at around 8, I did not come home for 12 hours and 37 minutes :( I missed my humble abode
Jack and this older girl, from year 9? Probably his sister joined our Drama class. They just wandered in! LOL that little cutie grabbing onto his folder and looking curiously at the mirrors and storage room.
He said something to Kenna, I don't quite remember it. But the whole thing was very ... him, but not him. Does that make any sense? It was still Jack because he said what Jack usually says, except he said it loudly, without hesitation. I'm proud of him.
Kenna then told him he had an aptitude for drama. That he should consider choosing it next year. Gosh, why can't I remember what he said?! It was almost monologue-like. Granted he only spoke a few sentences, he was really good. The vocal projection, the characterisation, everything gosh, well ... I guess he was playing himself... haha, but it was like he spoke his true feelings.
I admire him for that.
Advance onto next level fucked up dreaming.
Schools on lock down or something? everyone has to evacuate E-block and everyone in every other block has to stay put in their rooms. Some Harry Potter magic, started zapping ... things [it was like an illusion, like a recalled memory] with their wands, and it actually hurt/wounded the ... things LOL
Then, we were all turned into photographs in a joint photo frame. Our baby faces behind the glass. Cassandra was there, I think she picked up the frame and put it back down.
I'll just stop wanting things, so I can finally have them
Skating again today! It was fun -ish LOL we did a lot more walking than we did skating...
So lazy, omg LOL WHAT HAVE I BECOME?!?!
Anywho, Photo photo!! LOL
Col and I on the bus home LOL the little girls in front of us kept turning around whenever my phone made the "oh! I've just captured a photo" noise, thinking maybe we took a photo of them LOL HAH no way!
LOL Today was good... fun and that ..
I've become really lazy LOL in all aspects of my life, like my health .. like exercise and shit, the way I eat LOL [lay down after a meal] and the way I blog heh.. heh.. LOL
PHOTO BLOGS ARE SO MUCH EASIER LOL
But just for the fun of it. Today, I finished school at 12 and Bobs and I decided to go to Parramatta. We waited for the train, all the while debating whether or not we should go LOL We refunded our tickets and took the longest bus ride to Cabra. You guys know the free shuttle bus right? We were walking towards Cabz and then we saw it ... so we ran back to Canley LOL caught the bus which took us to Canley Heights then to my house then to jimbos and finally, to woolies. LOL
We decided to make paella, yum LOL the ques were really long. Anywho, Bobs decided to buy oysters. I had never tried oysters before. They were...
ABSOLUTELY FUCKING AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
LOL best thing :)
Anywho, we ate and watched Desperate Housewives cuz we love it so much LOL Bobs left me, with all the dirty dishes [lol asshole LOL jk!] and I watched Downton Abbey (L)(L)(L) and my other shows LOL HIMYM isn't as funny anymore =/
Then I started feeling fat. So I went to skate with Dalz, Danny and Charlie LOL It was heaps fun :) We rode to LS which was omg, yum LOL and then we rode around Cabra. Which isn't too bad at night when there are no cars LOL
So like, photo .. caption LOL I FOUND A FRIENDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!
in English LOL