studying makes me so fat :(
or maybe it's the winter
winter makes me so fat
I'll get my sexy legs for summer, you'll see!
LOL anyway, It's been a while hey?
I will come back with an update soon! but as for now...
lackadaisical is one of the most enthusiastic sounding words I've ever heard
The last 24 hours have been shit.
Okay, that may be pushing it, but it hasn't been great.
I hate coming to something unprepared - that's why when I'm to go to/do somewhere/thing for the first time, I get a bit antsy because I don't like that feeling - the one you get when you just don't know. Fuck, I don't know how to explain it. It's not quite the fact that I don't like meeting new people or doing things for the first time. I can do all that just fine, it's more like this feeling I get when I'm alone and new and stuff LOL
Anyway, that's besides the point. I fucking hate being unprepared and despite my flimsy attempt to prepare myself for work and for today's labs, I have inevitably gotten myself into the above mentioned state, feeling that strange feeling.
I was talking to Collin about this today and he told me not to worry, cos I always come out the other end satisfied. I guess that was true today, but it doesn't change the fact that I put myself through all that worry and crappy feeling and eugh.
If I was just more prepared. If I could just be that little bit more willing to be prepared, to study, to revise, to compile, to try to just understand. I guess I'd be okay.
I can feel it. I can feel my words and my actions forming a little canal. One just long enough and wide enough for my body so I can just bury myself in these nasty little habits that I'm picking up. The ones that are only supposed to be temporary.
It feels like I used to be a better person, but I really can't tell anymore.
I am so poor :(
Anatomy lab was kind of a drag cos we told our demonstrator to go in depth with a few bones cos our lecturer ran out of time and couldn't go through them. That was a mistake. I wanted to fall asleep so many times. The high brought about by the cadavers has also subsided. I'm realising so many things and I'm getting v scared. I always fuck things up for myself when it comes to this. Ugh.
I think I've been putting off my anatomy work cos that lab was just eugh LOL
I know I should try to be a better person
But I kind of don't want to be. Not yet.
Give me some time.
How am I feeling?
LOL I'm actually okay.
I had dinner with Collin last night which was really exciting cos he's been MIA since we got our piercings, so I was glad.
We were talking the entire ride home in a carriage which was dead quiet and everyone could hear our conversation LOL it dawned on us so many times but we didn't ever stay quiet for long
I've been bargaining with myself a lot lately. I tell myself that if I write up my notes for BIOS and ANAT and do my Chem tutorial work, I get to watch one episode of Grey's Anatomy LOL
That's what I did last night. Spent some time with the douche bag I love, completed my work and had enough time left over for a bit of leisure. I reckon I'd be set if the rest of my life were to progress this way.
I actually don't mind my work - it's quiet interesting LOL
BUT, my bargaining isn't always warranted or traded off for something good. Like, I told myself that I wasn't going to my Maths lecture yesterday so I could eat with Kevin instead. The roof came off of the lecture theater my maths lecture was held in because of the wind LOL so I'm going to take that as a sing from God, telling me that it was okay to skip just yesterday's lecture LOL
Anyway, anatomy lab today. Ultra keen
How are you?
- The solo in yellow brick road is beautiful
- Meet me under shining lights, I've been waiting right here all my life
- finally downloaded me old music
- mosh head
- i fucking love taylor swift
- SO BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
- investing time in something that's going to lead me nowhere
- but i'm doing it anyway
- should've gone out last night
- OMG THE SEASON 5 FINALE OF GREY'S ANATOMY. MY FEELINGS. OMFGGGGGGGGGGGG
- What do I do with life now?
- season 6 feels wrong
- you brought this onto yourself
- you don't need me
- you just think that you do
- don't get upset
- I'm here if you are
- but you don't need me
- feels - giraffage next saturday :)
- close 2 me is better, danny LOL
- I can get my frank ocean money back LOL
- first week of uni was pretty good
- met a girl who reminds me of janice ian LOL
- this would work a lot better if there weren't any dot points
- I FUCKING HATE chem lectures
- Hate is a strong word, I don't mean it
- such a beautiful weather
- I wish I lived on the beach
- I hate wasting time
- They're wasting mine
- Who would I be, who would have me if they were removed from my life
- I should be outside
Been pulled over?
Dyed your hair?
Pulled an all-nighter?
Yes, three times now LOL
Baked a cake?
Fallen down in public?
yes of course LOL
Been caught making out?
Taken a pregnancy test?
Broken a bone?
no and I hope I never have to.
Have em right nowwwwww
Gone skinny dipping?
Built something out of wood?
Bulsa wood? yeah
Been to Disneyland?
Eaten a Krispy Kreme donut?
So many times LOL
Screamed during a scary movie?
Showered with someone of the opposite sex?
Been to a professional sporting event?
Slept till noon?
Not often, but yeah
Opened Christmas presents early?
Rolled down a hill?
Toilet papered someone's house?
No, very close to, though LOL
Laughed so hard you cried?
Burned yourself with a curling iron?
LOL nope, but I have with a straightener
Been hit on by someone too old?
Eaten food that fell on the floor?
... yes LOL
Given a hickey?
Shared a sucker with your dog?
I don;t have a dog anymore :'(
Been in an accident?
Shopped at Home Depot?
Spied on your neighbors?
Plucked your eyebrows?
Ridden in a limo?
Had a pet fish?
Lied about your age?
Bought something at a yard sale?
Fired a gun?
Yup. Nerf gun LOL I WILL SOON, I KNOW IT
Had a cavity?
I recall having 8
Been ice skating?
Handed out candy to trick-or-treaters?
Been in the hospital?
Made a prank call?
yes. omg these questions are boring LOL
Been sick on your birthday?
Gotten a tattoo?
Had food come out your nose?
Dear lord no LOl and I hope it never does
Gone out without underwear?
Had a massage?
Locked your keys in the car?
How does that happen LOL
Ridden a horse?
Yep LOL but not for long
Held a $100 bill?
Been to Europe?
NOT YET, BUT I WILL. YOU'LL SEE. I'LL GO TO EUROPE. YOU'LL SEE!
Built a fire?
Been skydiving?NOT YET, BUT I WILL. YOU'LL SEE. I'LL SKYDIVE. YOU'LL SEE!
Hogged the covers on purpose?
No, tht is cruel
Watched the Weather Channel?
Had a manicure?
Made mashed potatoes?
Written your phone number on a napkin?
Nope. Don't carry a pen around LOL
Been to the circus?
No, unfortunately :(
Further images from Tracey's 18th :)
Tracey and her sister, Kelly made this
Went to TK something with Col, Drew, Bobs, Maria, Huynh and Mai
Went to movies later, Huynh, Mai, Collin and I watched the conjuring. It was actually very good in terms of scare factor and storyline LOL the others watched world ar z which apparently was also v scary
First day back at uni. Hellen's first day at UNSW!
She peer pressured me into skipping the rest of my lectures to go and eat at Jazz City Diner. It was closed LOL so we ate at Mr. Crackles on Oxford. It was pretty damn good. Lamb roll with chilli cheese fries and salted pork crackling in the bg
This was actually v nice, but also sickening. It smelt like dexter, my sisters dog LOL
Waiting for Kim to pick us up :'(
That thursday, Snez shouted us yum cha! Then Maria Snez and I went to grab coffee and cake at Livo
Burning shit at Collins
This looked like death. Like an emphysemic lung
Burning marshmellows for the fun of it
It started to look like cancer LOL
Breakfast at midnight at City Extra. So good.
Nachos. Yum. So hungry right now
Drove to the lookout to watch the sunrise. We were a bit too south easterly LOL rose behind us ish
Still v nice.
Trinh bailed on us so we'd whatsapp her photos every 5 mins LOL
Passionfruit beer (yum) and raspberry schnapps
This was our pretzel???? LOL tasted like very nice pan bread. We were at Essen on Broadway btw LOL
I liked their furniture
Brunch with my babes the next day
Mocha milkshake was a mistake. Just like all mochas are... LOL
I had the smoked salmon and roasted field mushroom omelette and Huynh had the chicken burger. We love beer batter chups
This loser won't stop followin' me
Stonegrill with the faggots
BEER BATTER CHIPS LOL
Collin had the ribs :)
Which brings us to yesterday. Bobs, Eeh and I had lunch at the bistro. We picked up Em and Collin after and on a whim, decided to pierce our bodies LOL
Eeh looks genuinely scared LOL
Bobs decided to join us :) 4/5. Not a bad outcome LOL
I believe this was sunday. We ate Thai and I got the worst stomach alien LOL We played bloody oath and Eeh received the whole deck's worth of punishment. He took it like a man, hiding under his jacket LOL
Hellen and I gave collin's head a buzz. He looks evil.
Hung out at Snez's the next day
Played with her ancient antique phone
Milanos with most of the kik. Maria made a crame
WTF? later LOL This was so sweet. I could really use some right now. God I'm so hungry atm.
Went shoe shopping with Danny and Dalz at Macarthur Square LOL We found the Nike store...
Drove around the city with this lesbian after the Canley v Canley ball game. Found this little burger/diner place. It was very nice LOL
Ordered the Aloha Burger which was v good
Got free Froyo :)
Hellen dropped the free froyo LOL
Baked a cake for Andrew's 19th the next night
Put some salami undernear the upright strawberry LOL it was actually a damn good cake!!
Ate dumplings at Ashfield and karaoke'd with ma babes
Drove to Castle Hill and squished 8 people into Andrew's car LOL Maria and Drew are in the boot
This was the view from the place we parked. It was pretty damn nice. We drove back to Huynhs and decided to go to the Gong the next day
Bobs at the Gong
Bobs running to Gong water
Grilled cheese and sausages at the Gong
STOP ALL BLUE TINTED PHOTOS I GOT A NEW PHONE, BUT OBVS THESE NEXT TWO PICS ARE FROM SOMEONE ELSES PHONE LOL
Visited Cat after doing something ... LOL I can't remeber
Skate at endeavour with Dalz and Danzo. Left them early to get El Jannahs
Bobs dancing with El Jannahs at Maria's
Trinh's bday. Heaps fun!
Tracey's birthday dinner !! Mound of chicken wings, yum!!!
Engineering boys made ... this LOL
Had a good chat to them about Melboure :)
Dat came and downed 2/3 of a tequila bottle with Jacqueline
He kept telling the story of the something pig LOL
Drove him home
I have yet to upload the rest of the photos from my new phone :)
Will get to it soon LOL